OPPOSITES ATTRACT..
My physics teacher taught this to me. The idea of opposites struck to me so cool that i started enjoying its presence in my life. And so from the experiments of the kissing magnets in the laboratory i started my so called phase of CONTRASTER.
The power of the opposites slowly became quite evident in my life. Every happening of my life bought with it an essence of the "contrasts". And soon as i learnt to join the links of my life, i saw myself clutched between right and wrong, trust and betrayal, love and hatred, maturity and foolishness, friends and foes....
so much for the love of science!!!!!
Earlier it dint seem to be of any trouble. On the contrary i enjoyed linking my life with the most famous phrase in the world of Science.
I would dodge between the opposites to bring in that adventurous feeling in my life. But slowly with the lapse of time....the literary meaning of CONTRAST dawned on my life. The velocity of the opposites got more strong, and i got sucked deeper and deeper in the mesh.
Life became, well what can i say, cruel happening ever happened to me. There were nights when I would sit and cry, deprived of love and there would be nights when i would cry thinking why people loved me so much. 'Contrast' that's what I have always experienced.
When life gives you something, it also offers with it a hidden option which, no doubt, is the total contrast of the first. And at times (in my case, most times) this 'hidden option' railroads you in such a way that you are left with only one option of DO OR DIE cause the stakes on each side are very risky. This turn in someones life is generally termed as DILEMMA by most grown-up. But I call it MY LIFE.
Now that might bring some morbid thoughts into your mind about me!!!! But thats the way my life is.
well Now.. NOW.. that i have declared my thesis on the opposites openly, I was told by the grown-up that to understand life, I must have a straight mind. But what they actully ment was that 'I am confused'. Well then confused it is!!!!
Right from choosing the clothes to be worn to choosing the right friend, i have to saught out my mind over a thousands of contrasting questions which unwantedly arise in my mind. Will my decision be accepted by my parents? will my friends understand me or not?? Is it mature or foolish? Is it the right or wrong? Will it help me gain trust or betrayal? WIll I make my loved ones happy or sad?
whow!! confused.. or rather screwed, I might sound. A rather apt word would be 'CONTRASTER'
18 yrs of my life, I have battled between the contrasts to understand life and the ones I love. I wish to keep on the struggel and cherish a hope that I reach the phase I call 'grown-up'.
P.S. my answers to every contrast question have helped me learn a worhtwhile leson