And NOW I believe

I have always believed in God!!! As a child, when left alone, I would pray for God to be with me. And I was never left unheard. Then for me, there was only one God… the Almighty. I had the least idea then that, as I will grow up, I will be forced to believe that different people have different gods. But what I dint understand was when God made us all alike with two hands, two legs, two eyes, two ears, one stomach, one brain, one heart, one nose…then why should we pray different Gods??? Nevertheless I kept my faith in Him and wished everyone did the same.
With increase in my maturity level, I got to interpret that the world was divided, as in literally segregated, on the basis of who prays who???? There were Priests, Sufis, Monks, Fathers, claiming to be the gods own messengers, forcing the world to carve up on the basis of their religion, caste, creed, faith. I could not understand that the so-called gods-messengers could actually create a rift amongst his very own people. And so my belief in god abridged.
The final blow came when a little look around me made it evident that God had left this place long ago and its now being ruled only by some hard hearted bozos who think of their religion and god to be the supreme. So much so that they are ready to kill the believers of other gods. Now I don’t believe in god nomore. Not after understanding that believing in him is the cause of the death of many. A little peep into the world of today is perfect enough to understand that Darwin’s theory of survival of the fittest is no more applicable. Its survival of the cruel, brutal, selfish….which is making rounds these days.

Now all I kinder in me is a wish that along with me there should be many who want to believe in something, something untamable by human mind and yet predominant in its existence. I believe in that thing, which the ever-inquisitive human mind can never conquer. No electronic machine, scientific equipments, religious rituals, holy sacraments can ever defeat in what I believe. Cause now I believe in the ultimate power of truth, love, trust, and faith, HUMANITY!!!!

Strength

Maybe the boat sank
But who says I cant swim????
Maybe the line is too far
But its not away from propinquity...
Maybe the truth is too harsh
But it aint difficult to believe.
No matter how long the course is,
or how gruelling it seems
With my loved ones as my strength
I am sure I will win!!!!

Serenade

I don't know what love is?

I don't know how it feels?

because the world so harsh

Infidelities at power

have made a beast

of what once was me.

I wish to live for once

away from the clutches,

the bonds the world has on me.

For once I want to be me

and feel the magic

that love beholds on all...

away with the time,

beneath the shadows

holding your hands

lost in your embrace

and the love it conceals,

sink into the debts of your eyes

to search that eternal rose

which, they say

is the most precious of all...

And yes, it is a priceless jewel I posses.

The zenith of our togetherness,

I cannot say,

how difficult it will be.

I'll have to desert my love

at times

for peace and solemnity.

But forget you must not

that your seeds of love

have bloomed into me

because now I know what love is

and now I know how it feels......

What am I????

Am I a Word??
Maybe a fantasy.
There are many answers in me,
For now I am a question to me.

The depths of the Seas and heights of the skies,
The buds of the springs and sight of the horizon,
They say
Conceals within
The mysteries unknown
To the living soul.

What mystery is, I know not
For it is concealed somewhere within me

Harsh autumn winds and the merciless sun,
The miseries of the rich, the wails of the poor,
The cries of the helpless, the terror of the scared
Will one day erode me
And then within my crust what hides
Will make itself known to the world at large
But not me
For I would be eternally one
With the great ALMIGHTY.

What is LOVE????

well what exactly is love????
Its the unexplainable feeling, emotion, reaction..... between two subjects which have a heart and soul. Love can be the patience of the father towards his stubborn son. Love can be the understanding of the mother towards the unheard troubles of her daughter. Love can be the longing of a girl to play with her pets. Love can be the gardener's tender whispers with his trees. Love can be the bonding between the friends. Love can be seen in the scoldings of the teacher on her tot. The eyes of the lioness describe her love for her cubs. Love is in the loneliness. Love happens when you try to understand someone. Love is in the hand held out for the helpless. Love is the silent talks through the eyes of the lovers. Love is the impeccable faith in the supreme. Love is in the touch of the mother. Love is in the tears of the beloved. Love is in the memories of the past. Love is what will help humanity to be immortal......

Love happens when you can completely understand the feelings of your beloved, even when he speaks in a language unknown to you!!!!!!

CONTRAST

OPPOSITES ATTRACT..


My physics teacher taught this to me. The idea of opposites struck to me so cool that i started enjoying its presence in my life. And so from the experiments of the kissing magnets in the laboratory i started my so called phase of CONTRASTER.


The power of the opposites slowly became quite evident in my life. Every happening of my life bought with it an essence of the "contrasts". And soon as i learnt to join the links of my life, i saw myself clutched between right and wrong, trust and betrayal, love and hatred, maturity and foolishness, friends and foes....


so much for the love of science!!!!!


Earlier it dint seem to be of any trouble. On the contrary i enjoyed linking my life with the most famous phrase in the world of Science. I would dodge between the opposites to bring in that adventurous feeling in my life. But slowly with the lapse of time....the literary meaning of CONTRAST dawned on my life. The velocity of the opposites got more strong, and i got sucked deeper and deeper in the mesh.

Life became, well what can i say, cruel happening ever happened to me. There were nights when I would sit and cry, deprived of love and there would be nights when i would cry thinking why people loved me so much. 'Contrast' that's what I have always experienced.

When life gives you something, it also offers with it a hidden option which, no doubt, is the total contrast of the first. And at times (in my case, most times) this 'hidden option' railroads you in such a way that you are left with only one option of DO OR DIE cause the stakes on each side are very risky. This turn in someones life is generally termed as DILEMMA by most grown-up. But I call it MY LIFE.
Now that might bring some morbid thoughts into your mind about me!!!! But thats the way my life is.
well Now.. NOW.. that i have declared my thesis on the opposites openly, I was told by the grown-up that to understand life, I must have a straight mind. But what they actully ment was that 'I am confused'. Well then confused it is!!!!
Right from choosing the clothes to be worn to choosing the right friend, i have to saught out my mind over a thousands of contrasting questions which unwantedly arise in my mind. Will my decision be accepted by my parents? will my friends understand me or not?? Is it mature or foolish? Is it the right or wrong? Will it help me gain trust or betrayal? WIll I make my loved ones happy or sad?
whow!! confused.. or rather screwed, I might sound. A rather apt word would be 'CONTRASTER'
18 yrs of my life, I have battled between the contrasts to understand life and the ones I love. I wish to keep on the struggel and cherish a hope that I reach the phase I call 'grown-up'.

P.S. my answers to every contrast question have helped me learn a worhtwhile leson